Since my return...an update

"Sister Renita, you are a prophet." 

Those are the words that I heard twice last week, from two different pastors.  They went on to add that I am calling out a warning in the way of Ezekiel and that pastors and leaders of the Church, need to hear and respond.  This followed on the heels of a chapel service for pastors, in which I was told after, that if I had done an alter call, all the pastors would have had to come up and confess to standing in the way of their people glorifying God by doing business.

While I have heard positive feedback about my work throughout my time of doing it, these strong statements are unusual.  I think, in part, it is coming because I am speaking with a new passion and energy for this work.  There were a few things that happened this summer - a few "aha" moments - that have helped me articulate this work and this vision even better, and so I am finding myself speaking, teaching, and even preaching with more passion.  I am praising God for this, as I believe it is from Him.

I am currently teaching a Business as Mission class at the Africa Theological Seminary for about 20 pastors and business persons who will become trainers in this at their respective churches.  This is session one of two sessions in which they will earn a certificate to become trainers.  What a joy and delight to teach this material to them - to see lightbulbs going off, to watch them look at God delighting in work and business - to realize that work is NOT a curse, it can be worship and it's what we were created to do!

Pastor John Matui, an enthusiastic and charismatic pastor.

Yesterday I was privileged to give the message at a church of approximately 125 people in a small village (of about 2000 people) in Mt. Elgon.  The church was packed, in fact they are having the wonderful challenge of not having enough space in their church. It was a beautiful service, with a good portion of the service dedicated to testimonies.  Person after person gave thanks to God for His blessings - not a single person asked for prayer for anything.  The joy was palpable and contagious.  As I sat in the humble church, filled to overflowing, surrounded by praise, I was humbled to remember how blessed I am and how the joy of the Lord is our strength!

His very crowded church (intern Jeff in the front right).

I couldn't help but notice the new church that was being built adjacent to the current building.  As I asked Pastor Matui about it, he shared that this building project (see picture below) started in 2006 - seven years ago.  As the picture shows, it has a zinc roof, and steel crossbeams (instead of bamboo) and is cement block instead of mud.  It has been built, slowly but surely, by these faithful members, many of whom are farmers and small business persons.  They are now at the place where members are encouraged to "buy" a window for 5000 KSH (about $43 US).  While we were there, two older women gave their money for a window.  I can't imagine the sacrifice that was made on their part to contribute such a gift.  Again, a humbling experience. 

After church everyone shakes everyone's hand as they form a circle.  A lovely tradition.

The current structure.

The new structure, begun in 2006.

House of Hope VSL group

Since my return, I have also had the opportunity to visit with the business owners who were trained and commissioned as Marketplace Ministers at the beginning of June.  The reports continue to come back in very positively, with businesses growing, lives being given to Christ, new jobs created, and so on.  A big surprise to me is the success of two Village Savings and Loan groups that I helped start just prior to leaving.  I really did not think that they would be successful, as I gave the training and then left, without any ongoing support.  To my surprise though, both groups are doing great.  The first group, from House of Hope (which is a church of lower income, lower educated, micro business owners) had accumulated around $240 US during the three months, and were loaning that out to each other.  That is not a large amount of money, but to them it was huge!  Their pastor shared with me that her members are no longer coming to her for every little need, but are going to each other and growing from this group!  Praise God for that. 

Friends VSL Group

The second group is a bigger group with businesses that are a bit larger.  I was able to attend their fourth meeting (they meet monthly) and was surprised to learn that they have saved a total of 150,000 KSH or $1760 US in that same period of time!  They were very orderly in their procedures as well, closely following the constitution that had been put in place.  The money was all being loaned out; they had significantly more loan demand than their savings was able to meet, but they had a system in place for working it out.  Very exciting!

Intern Jeff Bloem arrived this past Wednesday as well and joined the BAM class, learning alongside the Trainers and getting to know the people with whom we will be working.  Additionally, I was excited to receive news of partial funding to hire a Kenyan to make this team three people strong!  I have posted the position and am beginning to receive CVs of interested persons.  Please pray along with us that we will find the right person!

I discovered a new fruit:  the sugar apple.

Mambo Sawa Sawa

I was going to update you on my work this week and share with you what I have found since my return, but there are two news stories that I think need our attention and our prayers, so I will update you on the work next week.

People fleeing the mall.  Picture taken from BBC website.

The first news story is terrorist attack that took place starting on Saturday at noon in Nairobi.  At the time that I am writing this, the death count stands at 68 with 175 people injured.  The siege is still ongoing however, with an unknown number of hostages inside, so we don't know what the final count of persons injured/killed will be.  My understanding is that this morning (Monday morning) there has been heavy gunfire heard. It is believed that there are between 10-15 male and female militants still inside.  The Somali Militant group, Al-Shabab, has claimed responsibility for this attack, which took place at noon at an upscale mall, where many expats and middle income Kenyans shop and spend their Saturdays.  The mall was hosting a special children's day event when the attack began. Those killed are men, women, and children, from North America, Europe, Asia, Ghana, and of course Kenya.  President Uhuru's nephew and his nephew's fiance are among the dead. 

Kenyan soldiers also injured.  Picture from BBC website.

Al-Shabab, which is linked with Al-Qaeda,  had apparently threatened that they would do this in response to the Kenyan military operations in Somalia.  This mall was a prime target because of the international presence.  If you recall in February I shared about the killing of one of the seminary students by the same group (click here for link).  This is a very sad event and scary for so many people.  Please pray that this does not fuel greater tensions between Muslims and Christians in Kenya; that the response by the government is wise and discerning; and that terrorism does not become an ever present danger and concern on the streets of Nairobi and other cities in Kenya.

The second story has to do with the International Criminal Court (ICC) in the Hague.  If you have been reading our blog for some time, you have heard us talk about it.  It is this court that tried Charles Taylor, from Liberia, and found him guilty not too long ago.  It is this court that took former president Laurent Gbagbo from Cote d'Ivoire when he refused to step down and where he now awaits trial.  And now the recently elected president and vice-president of Kenya are to be tried by the ICC for atrocities during the 2007 Kenyan presidential election.  The vice-president's trial has already begun.  There has been a growing outcry among Africans that the ICC or the search for international justice is being politicized, and that African leaders specifically are targeted while atrocities in other areas are ignored.  It has now come to the point that on October 13, the African Union will meet in Addis Ababa to discuss a mass withdrawal from the ICC in protest.

Kenyan Vice-President William Ruto at the ICC trail.  Photo from BBC.

While the Kenyans I speak with claim that they don't know the truth about the innocence or guilt of their president or vice-president in this matter, there is a principle at stake:  a principle of justice and equity. 

This morning at church, we sang a song in Swahili called "Mambo Sawa Sawa" which says that things are already better when the Lord is on the throne.  I like that phrasing - "things are already better."  When I hear  a song like that, sung with confidence and joy by Kenyans who are facing or who have faced so much, it gives the words a whole new meaning.  Please pray with us that those making key decisions will keep the Lord on the throne.  Please pray with us that things will get better - for the hostages, the families in mourning, for national justice and international justice, and even for the members of the Al-Shabab Militant group, who also need to know the Lord.

Thanks to so many of you who have sent me messages since Saturday letting me know that you are praying and wondering about my safety.  I am very safe, being about 250 miles northwest of Nairobi.  I received three text messages from the US Embassy on Saturday alerting me to the danger, so there is good communication.  I am not concerned for myself, but for my brothers and sisters in Nairobi.  Thank you for continuing to pray.

A Time of Rededication: A Song, a Message, and a Prayer

On Friday morning, after a trip of about forty-eight hours, I returned to Kitale, Kenya, where I will be until early June, 2014.  That seems like a very long time to be away from loved ones, especially my children and Michael.  It is true that I have left before, many times, for even longer periods.  But having done it before, doesn't make it easier now.  Knowing what I know, knowing what can happen in times apart, knowing the fragility of life, can make it more difficult.  This was evidenced in the death of a dear friend and elder, John Lambers, while I traveled to Kitale.  In an instant, I'm reminded of how far away I am from loved ones - how unable I am to reach out to hug, to be present, to share in the grieving and in the joy of my church family.

And so I find myself in a time of rededication to my Lord and God: of myself, my loved ones, my calling, and my work; I imagine that this is something that we are all called to do on occasion, wherever we are. And so, just as I have been ministered to in various ways this weekend through various venues, let me share those with you, in case you too are in need of some encouragement.

Last week, at Madison Square Church, we were led in worship in a song that commanded us to "Go, go, go..." and I found myself thinking about how easy those words are to sing...and how difficult to do.  This weekend, I have been singing Michael Neale's mix of Take my life/I am Yours, as can be heard here.  The words, at times, are an effort of my brain to bring my heart along: Take my life, You are all I live for, I am yours.

I then listened to a message from Pastor Joy Bonnema, from Madison Square Church, who reminds us so passionately of the power of the Holy Spirit that is ours as we are sent out (Acts 1:8) and that we are not called to stay in our comfort zone.  To hear her message and passion, and her own remarkable testimony of going, you can hear it here: http://www.madisonsquarechurch.org/sermondownloads/2012-10-28-MS.mp3 

Lastly at the Christian Reformed World Missions Orientation this past summer, Patty Hogan shared some prayers from the book called, Guerillas of Grace: Prayers For the Battle, by Ted Loder.  I quickly got myself a copy and have been ministered to by these prayers as well. This prayer in particular speaks to where I am right now:

Turn your Spirit Loose

O God, turn your Spirit loose now,
and me with it,
that I may go to where the edge is
to face with you the shape of my mortality:
the inescapable struggle and loneliness and pain 
which remind me
that I am less than god after all,
that you have made me with hard limits,
limits to my strength,
my knowledge,
my days.

Facing those limits, Lord,
grant me grace
to live to the limit
of being unflinchingly alive,
irrepressibly alive,
fully alive,
of experiencing
every fragile,
miraculous,
bloody,
juicy, 
aching,
beautiful ounce of being a human being;
of doing my duty and a little more;
of loving the people around me, my friends and my enemies;
of humbling myself to take others seriously and delightedly;
of applying my heart to the wisdom of simplicity, the freedom of honestly.

O God, turn your Spirit loose here, and me with it,
that I may go to where the silence is
to face with you the utter mystery
of questions without answers,
pain without balm,
sorrow without comfort,
and fears without relief,
which hound my days
and haunt my sleep.

Facing the mystery, Lord,
grant me grace 

to wrestle with it
until I name the fears
and force them to set me free
to move on with whatever limp I'm left with;

to wrestle with it
until the pain teach me 
and I befriend it,
until the silence subdues me
into an awareness that it is holy
and I am healed by it;

to wrestle with it
until I go deeper in it
to gratitude
for all the shapes of wholeness
and of hope that bless me.

 O God,
turn your Spirit loose now,
and me with it,
that I may go to where the darkness is
to face with you the terrible uncertainty of tomorrow:
of what will happen,
what might happen,
what could happen,
to me
and to my children
and to my friends,
to my job,
to my relationships,
to my country;
all that I cannot see, but fantasize,
that I would prevent, but cannot,
and so must accept as possibilities.

Facing the uncertainty, Lord,
grant me grace
to look at it directly and openly and truly,
to laugh at it with crazy faith
in the crazy promise
that nothing can separate me from your love;
to laugh for the joy of it,
the joy of those saving surprises
that also stir in the darkness.
And, so, I trust,
despite the dark uncertainty of tomorrow,
in the light of my todays,
in the cross,
and in a kingdom coming,
and, so, I move on and pray on
with Jesus, my friend and redeemer.

Unflinchingly alive.  Crazy faith.  Crazy promise.  Indeed.  Amen and amen.

The Temptation of Plenty

Noah heading back to Calvin.

I have booked my ticket to return to Kenya next week Wednesday, September 11, which means that I have secured enough pledges to cover my support.  Thanks to all of you who graciously and generously have committed yourself to this work by supporting it financially! 

There is no doubt that this will be one of the more challenging departures.  Leaving Hannah and Noah for nine months will be tough; and leaving Michael, and a relatively new relationship, will be difficult, to say the least.  Hopefully Hannah and Noah will be able to come to Kenya for a visit over Christmas and stay for interim, taking a class at the Africa Theological Seminary.  And hopefully, Michael will be able to visit Kenya once during these nine months as well. 

Michael and I enjoying Niagara Falls.

The good news is that throughout the summer the work that I am doing continues to take shape and receive affirmation.  As I have recounted previously, my shift from doing business development with non-profits or NGOs to working with and through churches, was prompted by this key phrase from Ed Silvoso, an author of many Marketplace Ministry books, who said, "Be careful that you don't fatten people's bellies on their way to hell."  This phrase, of course, refers to the idea that it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for the rich man to enter the Kingdom of Heaven.  So as we are in the business of poverty alleviation - or the positive phrase of that is wealth creation - how are we protecting people's faith and discipling them to stay faithful to the call of God? 

Dr. Robert Coles calls this the "temptation of plenty."  In fact, he refers to the temptation of plenty as the most dangerous temptation all.  In the book by Philip Yancy called Soul Survivor (I referenced this book when I first read it in the summer of 2011 - you can read that posting here - it's a great book), Yancy spends a chapter on Dr. Robert Coles writings and specifically this issue.  Coles concluded that being privileged tends to stifle compassion, curtail community and feed ambition.  Yancy writes,

Reviewing the rich and poor people he had come to know, Coles was struck with the ironies.  It was true the poor were cursed...yet in a strange but undeniable way, the poor were also blessed, for whatever reason, with qualities such as courage and love and a willing dependence on God.  The irony:  good humanists work all their lives to improve the condition of the disadvantaged, but for what?  To raise them to the level of the upper classes so that they too can experience boredom, alienation and decadence? 

By the time the last of [his]...volumes were published, Coles had arrived not in a new place, but in a very old place.  He had traveled thousands of miles, recorded miles of tape, and written a million words, all of which pointed right back to the Sermon on the Mount.  He had discovered that the poor are mysteriously blessed and that the rich live in peril.  He had learned that what matters most comes not from without - the circumstances of life - but from within, inside the heart of an individual man or woman or child.  He had begun his research with a head full of phrases such as "guilt complex," "character disorders," "response to stimuli."  He had emerged with old-fashioned words like conscience and sin and free will. 

What was he to make of it all?  He dare not glorify poverty, for his field research had taught him the folly of that romanticism.  Nor dare he glorify wealth, which he now saw as a distraction or actual impediment to what matters most.

This quote reminds of God's will for our lives, my calling to encourage the Church, and the calling of the Church worldwide to equip, disciple, and encourage ALL believers in their dependence on God.  I am excited about the work that is ahead of me.  I am looking forward to joining God in the work that He has already begun in Churches and through the Marketplace.

So this is a bittersweet time - a time of saying goodbyes and a time of starting an exciting work.  I leave you with a video that Michael took of my father (who is in a nursing home with Alzheimers) and my mother singing, Great is Thy Faithfulness, when we visited them this summer.  My Dad didn't recognize me but he still does remember a few hymns.  This video is a good reminder to me of the faithfulness of God in all things, as well as a beautiful testimony yet of my father's recognition of the faithfulness of my mom to him through 56 years of marriage.

A Slight Shift in Focus

I have alluded a bit over the past couple of months that there may be a slight shift in focus to my work in Kenya.  That shift has now solidified into a picture of sorts, which I would like to share with you.  I'm excited about the shift and about the potential that it holds.

As you know, I ran a pilot project in Kitale during February-May of this year.  This pilot project, along with two other concurrent projects, went very well.  In fact, they went better than expected, with the reception of the church being very positive, and the response of the business members more positive than I had seen in the many classes run in West Africa.  I believe that this positive response was in large part due to the affirmation of the church and interaction from the pastor.  In other words, the Church was not just the venue but an important determinant in the success of the business owners embracing their role as Marketplace Ministers. 

The Business as Mission Congress in Thailand then affirmed that there is a good understanding and a growing field of resources relating to why Business as Mission is important, but the resources as to "how" to do this work in a way that bears relevance in a Marketplace, a city, or a nation are difficult to find, if they even exist.  And that is pretty typical for a new movement.  Movements typically start with why it should be, and then later comes how to do it.

While many organizations or individuals working with Business as Mission focus on individual businesses, the calling of the Lausanne Commission in 2004 was to first call the Church, and then release the business owners.  This is the wording from that document:

• We call upon the Church world wide to identify, affirm, pray for, commission and release business people and entrepreneurs to exercise their gifts and calling as business people in the world - among all peoples and  to the ends of the earth. 
• We call upon business people globally to receive this affirmation and to consider how their gifts and  experience might be used to help meet the world's most pressing spiritual and physical needs through Business as Mission.

What I find interesting in this language is that the recommendation for business owners is to "receive this affirmation" and move into Business as Mission (BAM).  The affirmation needs to come from the Church who is being called upon to "identify, affirm, pray for, commission and release" these business people.  There is an order here: first the church affirms, then the business owners go out.  Yet, most BAM groups are not addressing the Church.  There is much complaining about the Church, in that the Church does not affirm business people or sees business people as less holy, or only wants business people for their money.  Yet, the Church is not being challenged, taught, or addressed.  When I proposed a shift to my work a year ago to engage the Church more in BAM and directly involve them in this work, I was told by a number of people that it would be foolish to do this.  I was told that the Church is too difficult to work with, too bureaucratic, too desiring of power, and that it will not be successful.   

I am happy to see that this is not the case.  The churches and pastors that I have worked with thus far have been excited about BAM and have recognized how it can build not only their church, but can reclaim the Marketplace that Jesus has already redeemed.

So what is the shift you are asking?  (In other words, get to the point, Renita!)  Because of the lack of "how" to do BAM and because of the skepticism regarding working with the Church, ICM has challenged me to go deeper with three pilot projects that will last 12-18 months (rather than my earlier proposal of 12 cities in two years, which would have been very light touches or surface approaches).  The goal will be to do this with an eye on research, developing a baseline of the businesses, churches, communities and Marketplace, run the pilot program, and compare results many months later to see whether we can prove that the Church is a relevant vehicle for Business as Mission.

ICM has partnered with Partners Worldwide on this project.  The work will still begin in the Seminary, with on-going classes in Business as Mission being taught, but will then proceed to three churches in three different cities, from three different denominations.  The Partners Worldwide model of training, mentoring, access to capital and advocacy will then be rolled out in the church, and the ensuing months will be working with the church to provide ongoing discipling, training, and supporting of the Marketplace Ministers.

Jeff Bloem

Because this project is much more research based, with a high demand on interviewing and gathering of data, I have hired an intern by the name of Jeff Bloem, to be a research assistant with me in Kenya for the next year.  Jeff is a recent graduate from Calvin College with a degree in Economics and International Development.  He spent a semester in Ghana doing some research with my former colleagues and friends at Hopeline Institute.  He has to raise 100% of his support, so please pray along with us for the provision of his funding.  Additionally, I would like to hire a Kenyan to work alongside us in this work.  One of the shifts has been to see that this work is not about Kenya alone, but will hopefully have a global application.  However, as the research is happening in Kenya, it will be important for a Kenyan to join the work, both to weigh in as to cultural issues that are inherent to Kenya, as well as to carry the work on once the research project has ended.

I'm excited about being involved in such a research project and pray that we may find a solution that allows for churches in the future to engage their business persons and have an impact on the Marketplace and nations, impacting systems.

Some people have asked me how they can join in this work.  So glad you asked!  

1. There is a need for prayer partners for 150 businesses as we like to have a one-on-one relationship with people to pray individually for the needs of each business.  
2. There is a need for mentors who will be able to use their gifts and talents to impact a high-level business (types of skills needed:  marketing, book-keeping or accounting, strategic planning, technology, management, personnel, and specific skills relating to quality control and manufacturing).   
3. Maybe you have a specific business expertise and are willing to come to teach a group of businesses for a week.  
4. Maybe you are interested in investing some money in a business in the form of a loan at a low interest rate to help build capacity in a local business.  
5. I am also building a team to surround this work in prayer over the next 18 months as we get into the project.  
6. Many of you have joined me by giving financially (I am about 85% of the way there in terms of pledges!  Praise God!) and that is an ongoing need. 

If you are interested in more information on any of these, please email me at renitar@icmusa.org.  

The following video was done by Right Now Ministries, on Work as Worship.  It is very well done and captures the essence of what we are trying to do.  Enjoy!

 

Africa Rising: Getting Beyond the Single Story

Dr. Walker presenting.

Last night, Dr. Phillip Walker, Rev. Stephen Mairori, and I had the opportunity to share about the work of ICM in Kenya.  Dr. Walker began his presentation with asking the question, "What word comes to mind when you think about politicians?"  After a few...ummm...interesting responses, he followed with this question, "What word comes to mind when you think of Africa?"  For many it was, animals, poverty, war, corruption, and sickness.  Dr. Walker's message to us last night is that for so long, Africa has had a single story, as told to us by the media: a story of darkness and sadness; a story that evokes pity.

But a new day is coming and in many ways has already come in Africa.  It is a story of Africa Rising!  Africa is not a single story continent.  As Dr. Walker shares it, he said, "Africans are writing their own story now.  It is a story of people, not projects.  A story of potential, not poverty."  He adds, "The story that Africa has poverty is not wrong, but it is an incomplete story."  He went on to say that the mistake that we have made is in having the focus being poverty alleviation versus wealth creation; once you alleviate poverty, then what?  What fills the vacuum?  The mistake we have made is in fixing problems, rather than empowering people. 

ICM's tag line is "African people solving African problems with God's solutions."  That is the focus of ICM and that is why it is run by nationals in all the countries where they work. ICM is about leadership transformation and they do not measure success by the number of graduates from their seminaries, but rather from the Churches and communities who are transformed by the pastors as they continue in their work.  That is why ICM is passionate about the work that I am doing with Marketplace Ministry.  Education doesn't stop with their pastors once they have their BA in Theology, but rather they continue to pour into their pastors so that transformation can happen in their churches, in their communities, in the Marketplace, and in the nations.  It is an exciting time to be part of the work in Africa and it is a blessing to be part of the ICM team who is intent on telling the new story of Africa.

The Body of Christ, listening intently.

Thanks to all of you who came out last night and continue to support this work with your prayers, words of encouragement, and financial support! 

At the event last night I gave an update on the fundraising challenge that I have found myself in:  out of the twenty donors that I needed to commit to $100/month, I have already received 12 commitments.  By the end of the evening, two more donors stepped up!  Praise God for that!  I still need six more persons before I am able to book my tickets back to Kenya and I am still hoping to go back in early September.  Please continue to pray if God is calling you to support this work. 

Here is a brief video that I put together of the work that I am doing in Kenya.  If you weren't able to attend last night, I hope you get a sense of the work here!

Cost of Hunger in Africa

Interesting research has been released after a new study done by the World Food Programme showing the actual cost of hunger on a nation in terms of dollars due to lost productivity and the effects of malnutrition on employment.  This is an interesting measurement that seems to reinforce the work that we are doing through business development and economic growth.  As businesses grow, families can better feed their children for the long term, and the stronger the businesses, the stronger the long-term effects on a nation.  [Reminder:  Please join us this Sunday at Madison Square Church at 6 pm to hear Dr. Phil Walker and Rev. Stephen Mairori on the work of ICM in Africa, especially as it relates to information like this!]
  
[Article taken from:  http://www.wfp.org/stories/malnutrition-costs-uganda-5-cent-gdp]

Uganda loses some US $899 million annually due to the effects of malnutrition. This is the alarming finding of a new study entitled The Cost of Hunger in Africa, which for the first time measures the economic burden of hunger on the continent. Uganda is the first of 12 countries in the region to announce its findings.

KAMPALA (Uganda) – Widespread malnutrition costs the central African nation of Uganda hundreds and millions of dollars each year in lost productivity, according to a new study. Read the news release

The Cost of Hunger in Africa study estimated that Uganda loses around $899 million per year -- around 5.6 per cent of its gross domestic product -- as a result of workers getting sick more often and being less productive because they lacked the right nutrition as children.

“These are extremely worrying findings,” said Prime Minister Amama Mbazi, whose government played a central role in the Uganda part of the study. He said that steady economic growth in Uganda in recent years was not enough to to address stunting and other costly impacts of a poor diet.
Uganda urgently needs to invest in nutrition-oriented measures and policies to ensure economic savings for the country and its families alike, the Prime Minister added.

Cost of Hunger
The findings in Uganda were the first to emerge from the Cost of Hunger in Africa report, a study carried out in 12 countries across the region with the support of the African Union Commission, a body which includes the New Partnership for Africa’s Development, the UN Economic Commission for Africa and WFP. 

According to the report, malnourished children dropping out or underperforming at school subtracts around $116 million from an economy in need of educated workers. Lower productivity in sectors such as agriculture cost Uganda another $201 million per year.

The country spends around $254 million per year treating cases of diarrhoea, anaemia and respiratory infections linked to malnutrition. Enough children die each year of causes related to hunger to reduce Uganda’s labor force by some 3.8 per cent. That amounts to some 934 million working hours lost every year due to an absent workforce.

Critical nutrients
Uganda nonetheless has one of the fastest growing economies in Africa, expanding by an average 5 per cent over the past three years. But economic progress hasn’t been sufficient to bring down high levels of malnutrition.

One in three Ugandan children suffer from stunting, a lifelong condition that results when children miss out on critical nutrients such as proteins, vitamins and minerals while in the womb or in the first five years of life. People affected by stunting are more likely to suffer from illnesses, drop out of school, be less productive at work and live shorter lives.

To ascertain the economic impact of hunger on countries like Uganda, the authors of The Cost of Hunger in Africa report looked at data going back to 2009. Findings for Egypt, Ethiopia and Swaziland will be released in the coming weeks. 

Using a statistical methodology first pioneered in Latin America, the researchers will survey 12 African countries in total including Kenya, Rwanda, Burkina Faso, Cameroon, Malawi, Botswana, Ghana and Mauritania.

An Invitation...and a Warning

On Sunday, August 4 at Madison Square Church at 6 pm, Rev. Stephen Mairori and Dr. Phil Walker from International Christian Ministries will be speaking and you are invited to attend!  Rev. Mairori will be bringing the message at the 6 pm service, and then Dr. Walker will be giving a presentation following a dessert time after the service.  I know it is summer and the evenings are warm and inviting to spend outdoors, but I hope that you will spend this evening with us! 

However, I must give a warning in addition to the invitation.  It was listening to Dr. Walker last year in May, when he spoke in Ghana, who caused me to leave Partners Worldwide, join a new ministry, and move across the continent of Africa, from West to East.  It was talking to Dr. Walker after his presentation who inspired me to embrace my vision and not fear it.  So...if you are in any way struggling with a vision and how to fulfill it, or considering work internationally, be fully warned that attending this "Dessert with the President" of ICM may actually result in you making some radical decisions!  God has used this man in mighty ways!

In all seriousness, Dr. Walker has become a mentor to me in the very short time that I have known him.  He speaks with great wisdom and experience, and I know that his presentation will be inspiring.  He recently taught in both Nigeria and Egypt and I so wished to be sitting in his class while he taught.

ICM has a vision for the African Leader and sees the role of Africa changing significantly in the next twenty years.  They have seminaries in a number of different countries, work alongside Walk Thru the Bible, the Willow Creek Global Leadership Summit, Equip, and the Purpose Driven Life.  Each country where they work is owned and run by nationals.  For example, while I live and work in Kenya, I am working for ICM Kenya, and Rev. Mairori is my boss.  If I would move to Burundi, I would then work for the ICM country director of Burundi.  This approach is so important and is one of the reasons why I appreciate the work of ICM.

So please join us!  Feel free to email me if you have any questions.  We will have some yummy desserts!

On a different note, last week I sent out an email informing most of you that I had been told by ICM that before I could book my ticket back to Kenya in early September, I would need to have 100% of my support pledged.  In the email I sent out, I asked for 20 people to pledge $100 per month for the next year; I also asked for church connections if your church might consider taking on a new missionary; and I asked for prayer.  I want to thank God with you that within five minutes I had two pledges of $100/month, and two people who committed to increase their monthly support, as well as two church suggestions!  Five minutes!  Within 48 hours, nine of the twenty people needed made the commitment.  Praise God!  So thank you for praying!  And for those of you who made a commitment to give, thank you!  Please continue to pray for the last eleven people to come forward and make this commitment.  As I said in that email, and continue to maintain, this is God's ministry that I am joining - not my ministry.  And He has the resources and knows the people to be involved in this work, not me.  

Our God is able to do immeasurably more than we can ask or imagine!  Amen!

Update on the Kids

A few of you asked for updates on the kids and so this blog is about them. 

Hannah just completed her second year at Calvin College and will be a junior this fall.  She is 20 years old, which is hard for me to believe.  She too wishes that she was still a teenager and frequently will lament the passing of time.  She is double majoring in Social Work and Psychology, and minoring in French.  She wasn't planning on majoring in Psych, but after taking one class, she fell in love with it.  A chip off the old block, I guess - her father of course, and I too was a Psych major at Calvin.  In fact, her first Psych class was taught by a professor that I had as well.  Strange. 

Hannah is working full-time at the Calvin library for the second summer in a row, and she also works there part-time during the year.  She will continue working there again this fall, as well as begin tutoring in French.  She is volunteering with Oakdale Neighbors, a community development organization here in Grand Rapids, which she enjoys.  She continues to struggle with exhaustion and we continue to try different ideas for relieving her of that.  Right now she is trying a gluten free diet, which in addition to being vegetarian, makes cooking for her very challenging!

Hannah will be taking a couple of weeks off at the end of the summer to take the train to Vancouver, British Columbia (Canada) to visit a couple of friends.  One of those friends will then join her on the train back to Calvin.  Taking the train across the country should be beautiful.  (And I'm much happier with her taking the train instead of driving!)

Noah is 18 years old, just finished his freshman year at Calvin College, and will be a sophomore this fall.  (He skipped the first grade which is why he's a year younger than his peers.)  He adjusted very well to his independence and seemed to thrive with dorm life.  At this time he is planning on majoring in International Relations and minoring in French.  He doesn't have to declare his major until the end of this year, however, so the French minor might change.  He loves politics though and LOVES to debate.  He doesn't want to be a politician (for which this mother is thankful) but would love to end up in foreign service work.  His dream job would be to be an ambassador for the US somewhere in the world.  I'm rooting for Africa!

Noah is also working full-time at Calvin, on a building cleaning team.  For those of you who know Noah well, that was not a typo.  Yes, a cleaning team.  While I wouldn't say that he is enjoying the work, he is enjoying the fruit of his labor by earning money for his tuition.  Noah worked this job during the last school year as well and will more than likely continue in it this fall.  I keep telling him that should he decide to marry, his future wife will be blessed by his knowledge of cleaning, assuming that he will apply such knowledge!  Noah will also be serving as a Barnabas this fall on his dorm floor.  A Barnabas is someone who is the floor chaplain, so he will be running the Bible Studies and checking in spiritually with his floor-mates.  Hannah did this last year in her dorm and it was a great experience, so we hope the same will be true for Noah.  Noah also just got his drivers license, for which I am grateful.  Three drivers now in the family and no-one else to teach!

Yesterday we had a chance to visit Bob's parents in Lake City:

Hannah and her Grandpa.

Noah and his Grandma.

 I then wanted a few pictures of the two of them...and asked them to act like they loved each other. 

This is how they responded...

Getting warmer...

Awww....big brother and little sister...I mean...big sister and little brother.

Noah being all cool...

Hannah's face when she is about to make a smart remark.

PS - A point of clarification about last week's blog.  A few of you seemed a little confused and so I want to clarify two things:  one, Michael and I are NOT engaged.  That would be a bit quick.  The announcement was about our new relationship, in part because people were seeing us together and whispers were starting - so I thought I would clarify and tell the story.  Second, this does not change my work at this time.  I will still be heading back to Kenya in September and will be there until early June.  My work will continue as planned. 

Thanks to so many of you for your loving, thoughtful, and encouraging comments.  To say that last week's blog was a bit scary for me would be an understatement.  But so many of you, especially those who knew and loved Bob dearly, responded with great joy and excitement, echoing that Bob would want me to be happy.  So thank you, dear friends, for continuing this journey with me.

Surprised by Love

Those of you who are friends with me on Facebook may have noticed that I posted a relationship change last week.  Several of you responded with great surprise.  However, none of you are more surprised than me.

If you have been watching me over the past three years since Bob's death, you would have seen a number of postings relating to being content with being single and growing into the idea of Jesus as my husband.  One such posting had to do with why I still wore my wedding ring (and Bob's welded to it), posted here written in September 2011.  The other was much more recent, at the three year anniversary of Bob's death, as I acknowledged that for the past year, I had been working toward seeing Jesus as my husband, and had witnessed a number of responses from Him in that light.  That post can be seen here.

I truly believed that I would be single for the rest of my life - not out of resignation...not because I believed God "called" me to that...not even because I happen to live in Africa and having a relationship would be complicated.  I believed that I could be content and happy being single, fulfilling my calling while being single-minded and purposed.  The year 2012 was a significant year for me as I began to move out from under the cloud of grief and began to think through who Renita is.  Having gotten married at the young age of 21, to a man 14 years my senior, who happened to have strong opinions about things (no surprise to those of you who knew Bob!), I had a lot of figuring out to do of what I liked and who I am.  I had to look at many things again:  what type of food I like, what type of clothes I liked, since I bought a home during 2012 - what type of home furnishings I liked...and so on.  For the first 21 years of my life, I had my parents voice in my head.  The next 20 years had Bob's voice in my head.  Now it was just Renita.

I made many changes in 2012 - deciding to change organizations from Partners Worldwide to International Christian Ministries; changing from West Africa to East Africa; buying a house; and redefining myself.  In November I had a dream where I believed God revealed to me the reason for why Bob died the way he did - without any earthly explanation.  That seemed to be the final piece toward real peace that I needed to let go of the agony of Bob's death. 

As of February 2013, I told a few close friends that I was happier than I had been in years - even prior to Bob's death.  I had reached a deep level of joy, peace and contentment.  It felt great!  It is true that I struggled with loneliness in Kitale - being in a new country without knowing anyone.  But it was not a deep loneliness.  I knew it was just situational and would pass as I got to know people in Kenya.

However, with long evenings, no TV, and no one around in the house where I stay, I started checking in more regularly on Facebook to see what family and friends were up to.  I even began to develop some courage to post something every now and then.  These posting were always met with responses by people I knew and loved, so there was good reinforcement to check back.  I began to post some responses to posts here and there - not much, but a few times.  Enter Michael Thomson.

Michael is a member of my church - someone that I have known for some time, though not well at all; just as an acquaintance. He knew Bob better than he knew me - in fact he wrote a poem about Bob after his death.  I posted it on the blog shortly after Bob died - you can see it here.

In February of this year, Michael posted something on Facebook to which I responded.  And the rest, as they say, is history.  We began to communicate back and forth.  Once a week.  Then every few days.  Then every day.  I found myself experiencing feelings that I thought I wouldn't feel again. I was surprised, to say the least.  Michael was surprised as well.  Neither of us was looking to get into a relationship.  Both of us had committed to God to live into the life situation that we find ourselves in, learning to be content.  We certainly didn't expect this friendship, even as it developed, to turn into a relationship.  I was happy and content with Jesus as my husband.  My response to Jesus was, "Really?  I was committed to serving you as a single woman for the rest of my life.  I was content.  Now the 'cat is out of the bag' and I'm suddenly feeling alive again in ways that had been dead for years.  How do I get the cat back in the bag?"  I was no longer feeling content.  And I wasn't sure what to do about it.

Sharing this on the blog feels vulnerable.  But the truth is that this blog has witnessed my life over the past eight years - from Liberia, to Ghana, through the death of Bob and the ensuing grieving process, then to Kenya.  While sharing this feels vulnerable, it is no more vulnerable than what I have shared in the past.  Many of you have been faithful readers of the blog for many years, and I have appreciated your company on this journey thus far.  I feel it is only right to share this as well.

The tipping point for me where something switched from viewing Michael as potentially more than a friend came in an exchange in the beginning of April.  We were having a rather serious dialogue about friendship, Myers-Briggs types, and how we relate to people.  I've decided to share an excerpt of that exchange.

April 7
Renita Reed

People have perceptions of me based on what I do - and I'm just a normal person also trying to figure out how to make it - how to survive - some days doing it well, other days, not so much. I think at Madison Square Church, I've forgotten how to be real - and I wish I could get back to being real again.  I think when you wear this title of "missionary" and then "widow", it starts to take over who you are - and you start living into people's perception, even if it is only in your mind.

Michael Thomson

As for Madison...and not being real....I hope what I am going to say is real and not just my tired mind grasping at thin air...but how be you drop the titles of "missionary" and "widow" for "person" and / or "disciple". How be...if you are asked either before the church or in the church hall to talk about your life as a missionary, you let that slide or answer with...I can tell you what I am doing ...let me tell you what is happening and why I have made / am making some choices. Ask them about their "mission" be they nurses or janitors. As for "widow." Yes...you will always be Bob's widow...but you are still Bob's friend....a sharer of some of Bob's memories and dreams. My point is...Bob is to you more than what makes you "widow." Perhaps even more importantly...and with NO diminutive intent towards Bob or what you had with Bob or what you have of Bob in your soul...but in Madison as in the world you are hardly only Bob's widow. You are Renita! You are Renita! You are Renita who has followed her own sense of where God was leading her into Africa after Bob...Renita who continues to care for and parent from afar and takes risks that make her friends quiver even if she doesn't. At Madison maybe because Bob was such the extrovert and a presence ... SOME may remember you mostly in his shadow. But I dare say, most or all would welcome Renita and her story since Bob in all its authenticity...I really do believe that. So....live into your own place...and not merely as an echo of Bob at Madison. I know you do that in Africa...its your story "in the wind" now...

To be honest, this exchange scared me.  In some ways, I heard Bob's voice in this or at least a voice of encouragement such that I hadn't heard in a long, long time.  It scared me enough to contact some near and dear friends for advice and wisdom.  After debating whether to walk away from this new friendship a number of times out of fear, I was encouraged to explore it as possibly a gift from God.  Toward the end of April we had concluded that this was indeed heading toward a relationship.  At that time we emailed our pastors, who know us both very well, letting them know of our friendship and our desire to go on a date upon my return to Grand Rapids.  Both pastors responded so positively and enthusiastically - it was actually surprising and also affirming. During the worship portion of a church service while I was in Thailand in the beginning of May, I suddenly felt that it was time to take off my wedding rings.  I wept to take off the rings that I had been wearing for 23 years, that connected me still to Bob, and that had been a source of security since his death.  But I also knew that it was time.  Bob had told me that if he died before me, he would want me to marry again (I had told him the same).  I know that his deep love for me manifested itself for twenty years in wanting me to be happy.  I also know that now being in a relationship with another person does not negate or erase the love that I have for Bob, nor his ongoing presence in my life and my heart.

And so, there it is.  Michael and I have no idea where this is leading but have had many, many hours of deep discussion and prayer over this.  I happen to work in Africa.  Michael happens to work as an editor for Eerdman's in Grand Rapids.  Neither of us see our callings changing in the short term.  So this has become an act of faith for both of us.  We have seen a number of instances where it seemed God was the matchmaker and His hand involved in this.  And so, we trust Him to work out the details of living and working 7500 miles apart. 

When we posted our relationship status change on Facebook last week, we had so many nice responses from friends and loved ones.  Michael posted this in response, and I thought I would end this blog with his thought:

Thank you to our friends for your encouraging words. This moment is beyond wonderful! Renita and I truly feel blessed that our grief has been overtaken by joy. Not to say that grief disappears. Loss is loss. Yet in time of grief, in this relationship, we've found friendship, respect, and understanding. In this surprising but welcome moment in our lives, we've seen a work of God in bringing us together.

For you romantics out there, if you would like to read the poem that Michael wrote about me at the end of April, you may read it here.  And as you think of it, feel free to keep us in your prayers!